Autumn Equinox – Conception Mystery

Personal ritual for Autumn Equinox mystery point

 A ritual to honour Ishtar Transformer & the Mystery of Conception

This ritual marks the beginning of a new cycle of creation in our inner lives as woman and priestesses. In embarking on this year long journey with the Ishtar mysteries, we are opening ourselves to hearing what it is that we are called by Goddess to be, to do, to make manifest in our own lives.

In this ritual we are invited to surrender our fixed certainties about what it means to be a woman and a spiritual being, as the first step in a journey of deepening our intimate personal relationship with Goddess / the Divine Feminine. The intention of this ritual is to clear space within ourselves for something new to happen – we don’t yet know what it will be. The journey begins with a dive into the unknown – a journey fuelled by the transforming power of She who is the Source, Centre and End of our desires. Just as the autumn equinox marks the tipping of the balance from light towards darkness, so our journey with the Goddess mysteries begins with a movement into darkness. In the same way the miracle of conception begins – unseen in the generative dark space of the Mother’s womb.

For this ritual you will need:

· water &/or incense for cleansing your space

· a small table or altar space to work at (working on the floor/ground is fine if you prefer)

· a purple cloth for your altar space

· five candles

· matches or lighter

· a flower

· five slips of paper & a pen

· a burning pot (if possible)

· an egg (you may like to hard boil it and/or decorate it first)

· mood music (see Suggested music for the Autumn Equinox ceremony)


Allow yourself an hour of undisturbed private time in the evening (or in a darkened room) to complete this ritual.


Ritual process:

NB: Please resist the temptation to read ahead… do each step in order for full effect.

  1. Begin by purifying yourself.

Ways to do this could include:- taking a bath or shower (visualising yourself being washed through with light can enhance this process), doing any form of grounding/centering meditation exercise, putting on robes or other clothing that feels special, lighting incense, smudging/smoking yourself & the space.

  1. Energetically cleanse the space you will be working in.

On this occasion we suggest you do this by using water to which you have added a few crystals of salt. First bless the water, asking Goddess to charge it with cleansing power, then sprinkle it around your space with the intention of dispelling any stuck or negative energies. (You may add any other cleansing rituals that you like to work with here.)

  1. Create your altar space for the conception mystery.

If possible, begin with a purple cloth. Place upon it the five candles (in appropriate holders), your egg and any other symbols which speak to you of Goddess in Her aspect as Lover and Beloved, the One who Changes everything She touches.

  1. Call in any energies or presences you would like to have with you as you explore the mystery of conception.

You may like to use the Waterlily Open Heart meditation at this point – it will help you to ground and to connect to the flow of celestial energies through your body, putting you into a lovely state of consciousness from which to perform the remainder of this ritual. You may call other women into your space to support you (they may be living or in the spirit world/ancestors.)

  1. Invoke (call in) the presence of Goddess

In your own words asking Goddess to be with you and guide you through this ritual. Light the five candles – one for each of the four directions (east, north, west and south) and one representing centre. As you light each of the candles, you may like to contemplate the corresponding aspects of Goddess as we know Her through the Ishtar mysteries (see wiki for more details).

  1. Review what you know to be true.

Use the following process to explore your existing beliefs in relation to womanhood and spirituality – what you feel some certainty about, what you know to be true.

· Write out each of the following five sentence beginnings on a separate slip of paper:

i. Being a nurturing woman means…

ii. Being a powerful woman means…

iii. Being desired as a woman means…

iv. Doing a woman’s work means…

v. My relationship with Goddess is always…


· Next spend a few minutes completing each of the sentences in your own words. You may complete each sentence as many times as you wish.


· Re-read what you have written. Try to imagine what your life might be like if you didn’t believe any of these things any more.


  1. Contact your yearning / hearts desire.

Take up your flower. Seated or lying down in a comfortable supported position, put on some music which helps you get in touch with a feeling of yearning. Begin by hold your flower where you can gaze upon it. This flower represents your love, your passion. It represents your innermost hearts desire. Begin to deepen your breathing. Let the flower speak to you of your hearts desire, what you yearn for. Your yearning may be inchoate, wordless, undefined – or it may be that there is something quite specific that you are yearning for at this time – that is fine. Breathe into the yearning and feel it grow in intensity. Now allow this feeling of yearning to flow into a yearning for Goddess. Let yourself feel how much you want Her full presence in your life – to feel close and held, to feel that love.

  1. Let go & make a space for the Divine to come and live within you.

Take up any one of the five slips of paper on which you have written. Read the words aloud. Then make the choice to surrender these beliefs that you have been holding in order to open a space for something new and beautiful, something you cannot even fully imagine, to come into your life.   Sacrifice your old ideas on the altar of Love by burning them (or if you cannot safely do this then ripping them into little shreds.) Use the formula “I surrender…” (eg. “I surrender my beliefs about what it means to be a powerful woman”). Blow out one of the candles. Repeat this process for each of the remaining four slips of paper.

Sometimes it can be difficult to let go of beliefs that we see as positive ones in our lives. If this is the case, it may be helpful to view this process as being about openining your existing understandings to allow more space for the unknown to come and be made known to you.


  1. Open to the dark, to the unknown

Hold your flower and place the egg within easy reach. Return to a resting, supported position. Allow yourself to simply rest in the darkness of not knowing and experience what that feels like.

  1. When you are ready, consciously invite in the mystery of Goddess and open your being to receive/conceive a new possibility.

Affirm your willingness to be or become a vessel or a channel for whatever Mystery of Goddess/The Divine is wishing to become manifest in the world through your being. Place or hold the egg over your womb centre and gently open your awareness to any impressions, any sensations or impulses that may make themselves known to you, without making any effort to grasp or hold them.

  1. If you feel so moved, and without turning on too many lights, draw/write any impressions you may have received about the mystery which is seeking expression in the world through you. We strongly recommend that you do not immediately share these intimations of a new conception with anyone, but instead keep them in a safe and sacred place that is close to your heart for at least 7 days, preferably one full moon cycle.
  1. Give thanks and close the space however feels appropriate to you. Be sure to ground & allow yourself some time to gently return to normal waking consciousness.



Suggested Playlist for the Autumn Equinox – Conception Mystery ceremony

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Jane Siberry – Calling All Angels


Kirtana – Pulling in the Oars

In the Dark Space

Wendy Rule – Night Sea Journey

Opening to the new possibility

Kavisha Mazella – Clouds of Glory

Peru the Singing Woman – Ecstacy (or anything else from the cd Love’s Deepest Calling)

Closing Song
Sally Oldfield – This is my song


Just For Fun
Bellamy Brothers – Let your love flow

Earth God Rising – Autumn Equinox 2015

This year, for the start of a new round of mysteries and the potential deepening of the temple itself, it is important that we bring in the energies of the rising and falling green god of the earth and wild places, to bring full generative fertility to our conception mystery.  It is vital that we invoke the juicy seed of the wild god, (who is one with the beasts and the birds, the trees of forest and jungle, the tilling of the earth and the sprouting, growing and harvesting of the crops in the field; who speaks in the wordless voice of all wild creatures and in the rustle of the wind through the leaves of all that rises green out of the earth and reaches toward the sky;) that the blessings of his seed may spurt into the womb space of the Goddess, to co-create life,  hope and the possibility of a new beginning. An active and dynamic union of the Beloved Goddess and the beloved god, beginning a new cycle of becoming which will bring a new physicality to that which we have dreamed. Including this energetic vessel which is the Ishtar Mysteries, which is the temple of the Beloved.  Seeding the manifestation of whatever the emerging, evolving form of it is becoming this cycle and into future cycles.

The wild god is a process, a becoming, an enacting, an embodying.. He is dynamic, and deeply connected. He is relating, the experiencing of our relatedness. He is in our every mindful and instinctive interaction with the physical, organic and animal world.  He is eros.  He is the risen wheat and the harvested grain.  He is the hunter and the slain. In a very real and visceral way, he is the balance of nature, the power of nature to return, to overturn and overtake, subverting and reclaiming the defunct and constricting constructions of human civilisations.

The purple altar of Ishtar Transformer expresses a face of the Devine Feminine at the peak of her fertile receptive responsive flow.  Like the moon, she pulls us to Her, inviting us to dive deep and lose ourselves in Her, to surrender our small selves to the all transforming power of Love.  We feel her drawing power in the tidal surges of our desires, like waves, glimpsed by moonlight, emerging from the dark oceans which are the unseen dimensions of our beings to break on the shores of our consciousness.  Like the highest and deepest of love-making, in which we are simulatenously lover and beloved, climaxing in the vulnerability of an unconditional and complete surrender.

An angel hovers, intimating the presence of a soul seeking incarnation, the seed possibility of a divine human being.  Shall we, like Mary, say “Behold the handmaid of the Divine; let it be unto me according to your word”?

Each one of us, no matter the specific circumstances of our conception, began this present cycle of embodiment through the union of male and female energies, the fusion of the female and male gametes: ova and sperm.

“When a couple makes love, a vortex of static energy is created that circulates through the chakras of the two lovers. The energy vortex establishes the necessary conditions for conception. It transports the predominant feelings of the couple towards the “land” of the souls to be incarnated and attracts one that reflects all these feelings. The esoteric traditions declare the energy vortex takes the correspondent colour of the feeling the two lovers had in the moment of conception and this colour attracts by resonance a certain soul.”

~  Traditional yogic teaching

How do things begin?

“May all your choices be ones that intrinsically honour your soul”  (Wendy Rule, ‘Deity’)

The great wheel of life rolls on. The cosmic cycles of creation turn, returning us to the point of fresh beginnings.

fruit-315543From a place of stepping more fully into the power of her own truth, a woman becomes more beautiful, more attractive. Drawing to her that which holds the powerful fascination of “not self”. Drawing to herself the blossoming potential of relationship with another human being.  Another opportunity to glimpse her own deep potential in the mirror of another’s love, another’s presence. Finding ourselves lost in the presence of the Beloved Other. Finding our lost selves in the presence of the Beloved One.

Curiousity, chemical attraction, imprints buried deep in our subconscious minds from a time before conscious memory, the promptings of our soul urge to grow, to express and share ourselves, to explore belonging and make a valued contribution… who can say what draws us to the edge of the dark cave?  But here we find ourselves, on the eve of the Autumn Equinox, contemplating, on the threshold of another journey.

At Autumn Equinox we are like the woman standing in the mouth of the dark cave. We are like the girl-woman Kore – daughter of the Great Mother herself – reaching out to touch and the flowering promise of the bulb – herself plucked, ripe in this moment, out of time and space and into the transformative realm below the earth, of ancient darkness and the Power of the Deep.

No hero’s journey this, no sailing in a frail barque at the mercy of the winds across dark oceans to lands unknown there to face down fate and other monsters and bring home a prize of great price.  No.  In our journey it is Ocean herself that calls to us. A vast ocean of darkness teaming with unseen potential, unseen life.  Ocean, her body pulsing in great waves under the ebbing, flowing influence of the dark-bright changeable moon.  Standing on the shoreline we, caught in the enchantment of round, ripely moon. Responding releasing shining blissful touching stroking her undulation, releasing, a stream of moonlight pouring pouring a pathway into… the total transformation of who we know ourselves to be. That begins in a movement deep within. A movement so small we might entirely miss its significance.

Conception. Accepting the seed. Our hunger taking in and swallowing just one – (surely not even half a handful!) – of the tiny seeds.

How things begin in darkness. When we say yes. With or without intent. Mindless, heedless, uncomprehending of the consequences. Or curious, tempted, telling ourselves it is such a small thing, won’t matter, couldn’t make a real difference.  Or joyfully, ecstatically, surrendering our small selves to the great waves of love, knowing, and caring not at all that we may be transformed utterly in ways we cannot even begin to predict or understand.

Tumbling through blissful darkness. Throwing ourselves into the waves on a date with destiny.  Caught up in the cosmic flowering of creation now seeded in our being. Drawn deeper and deeper into ocean, into the dance.  ‘

Into the womb of the ancient and eternal Dark Mother we go!